Devotionals thoughts

Dating apps has been a subject of talk around my peers in the past months (when you’re in your 20’s/30’s amIright?! Lol), then I realized something… A friend was sharing of a friend who’s been dating a lot for the past three or so years through dating apps, and she still hasn’t found anyone to […]
Isaiah 6:3 And they were calling to one another: “Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory.” I used to think Heaven would be boring. When I read the Bible, it says we would worship God forever. My 14-year old self was not excited about that. (haha!) Well, […]
“The minute you willingly lowered yourself for someone else, they would never, ever look at you the same way.” I read that line from a novel I was reading. It was not a life-changing type of book, it was a passing time kind of romance novel. Yet, however, my God still speaks to me through […]
One of the unhealthiest things in our faith is when you process your thoughts and doubts about God publicly. I think there is something valuable in speaking our thoughts with people we trust who can listen to us without judgment. And allow them to speak over us with love and truth. Grace and truth. Grace […]
I looked around me and saw the destruction darkness has left in its wake. I heard the cries of desperation. I prayed to Jesus that I want to be a part of the SOLUTION, and that’s what He did. He invited us to partner with Him to be part of the SOLUTION He has been […]
Matthew 11:28-30 (MSG) “Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy […]
Romans 8:37 (NIV) “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” Back in the glory days of Rome, a “Roman triumph” was a parade of celebration by the victorious military commander. Let’s bring that concept into this verse and picture this: You drive into the city, head held high […]
If you asked me 4 years ago if I can imagine myself having a close relationship with my mom again, I would have sternly answered you a “NO, not really.” (long story behind this) But GOD is a GOD of miracles and restoration. He truly makes impossible things possible. Not even a year later, we […]
…………………Hey guys! It’s Jenna here again! I woke up this morning just feeling so grateful to God about where I am today. For those of you who don’t know, (well, I’m not entirely sure if I’ve shared this part of my life on my blog) my Dad passed away 5 years ago, and after […]
God has this elusive way of making you like someone you don’t really like. It’s amazing how He does it with me. Okay so you won’t get confused with how random that thought just came right at you, let me give you a bit of a background about me. I am the kind […]

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After time.

If you asked me 4 years ago if I can imagine myself having a close relationship with my mom again, I would have sternly answered you a “NO, not really.” (long story behind this)
But GOD is a GOD of miracles and restoration. He truly makes impossible things possible. Not even a year later, we were talking again. Every year since then I planned to make a post about how God’s restorative hands has healed this part of our family, but I still felt a “not yet” answer.
This time however was different. We are not completely “there yet” but my relationship with my mother has never reached this deep. We not merely talk about random girly topics, but we talk about Jesus and His Kingdom, how we can help more people and strategize for the Church.
I have to pinch myself everytime we have conversations like this. It’s unreal to me still!
I guess once you’ve hit that level of ‘I can’t keep doing this Lord!’ and yet choose to repeatedly having to choose to love and forgive someone who constantly makes choices that hurt me and this family. Until forgiving becomes easier and loving becomes you. Once you’ve gone past that, a deeper revelation and understanding of God’s love and forgiveness takes home in your whole being- mind, soul, spirit.
And so you grow. And continously pray. And you both grow. With maturity comes wisdom, with time comes healing. Old wounds leave a scar, yes, but it’s possible to be healed. You just have to choose to want it, receive it and embrace it. Cry and let it all out, choose to hate even. But never linger, let it go. Choose to let it go.
Some of you might believe what I say and some won’t, but as I can personally testify, all of these are not possible without the Lord Jesus. His love overwhelms and envelopes me. How He kept me company all the time, constantly encouraging and urging me throughout. To love even when I hate, to forgive even when it hurts, to give even when I completely ran empty.
At the end of the day, the choice is ours. Linger or let it go.

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