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LET’S BEGIN!!! Surely with Jesus or even Paul, God will answer and take away the pain, right? References: [1]Tom Wright, Paul for Everyone: 2 Corinthians(Great Britain: SPCK Publishing, 2003), 160. [2]Moyer V. Hubbard, 2 Corinthians, ed. Mark L. Strauss and John H. Walton (Grand Rapids, Michigan: Baker Books, 2017), 379. [3]Ibid. [4]Wright, Paul for Everyone: 2 Corinthians, 160. […]
Hi friend! I’m going to try a new thing for this month. I want to do a Bible series every Wednesday for the month February. I am very very excited about this. If you’re not a Bible-lover like me, I hope you will still stick around and be open to be encouraged by it. A […]
Isaiah 6:3 And they were calling to one another: “Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory.” I used to think Heaven would be boring. When I read the Bible, it says we would worship God forever. My 14-year old self was not excited about that. (haha!) Well, […]
Ready? Here we go. On the 4th of November, 2019, I finally launched my online course on Plant-based lifestyle I call “HOW 2BPB” (which simply means “How to be Plantbased”) Yes, me! I launched a course online! What? I think I am the most surprised of us all. If you asked me 5 months ago […]
Hey there! If you’ve been a reader of my blog for years and years, thank you for sticking with me. If you’re new, welcome! My blog has changed so much throughout the years. I started in 2011, writing and reviewing books until 2014. In 2015, I moved to Sydney, Australia and mostly wrote about my […]
Relationship Reconciliation Advice #1 Firstly, I’ve decided to write this article/post not because I’m an expert when it comes to these type of things. I’m only 27 years old, not old enough to be a grandparent yet… because you know, our grandparents know a lot and have experienced a lot in life to be considered […]
Learning a new language is not easy. At all. I don’t know what I was thinking three months ago when I decided it is a good idea to learn a dead language. Yes, I’m learning a dead language. Koine greek. My precise reason was ‘to learn to translate the New Testament of the Bible’, by […]
The following are my thoughts from a month ago… July 15, 2017. I’ve been so sick this week (physically) and lonely (emotionally) and am overcome by this utter sense of unfinished unsettling feeling… I couldn’t pinpoint what is it. Have you ever experienced this? It’s like being hit by an arrow but you don’t […]
Hello guys! . So, I have to be honest. I haven’t been in the book world for a loooong long time. I mean, I do try to keep up every now through youtube, and through following my fave authors on social media. But that’s it. Better than nothing right? . ANYWAY… this post is about […]
What did I think of this book? I think this is the most emotional, honest and heartbreaking book Colleen Hoover has ever written yet. There’s too much emotion I could feel at the same time: fear, elation, hope, expectancy, sadness, empathy… that I did not even cry a single tear. And I always […]

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The Light Shines in the Darkness…

The following are my thoughts from a month ago…
July 15, 2017.
I’ve been so sick this week (physically) and lonely (emotionally) and am overcome by this utter sense of unfinished unsettling feeling… I couldn’t pinpoint what is it. Have you ever experienced this? It’s like being hit by an arrow but you don’t know where it exactly hit you but you feel it sicken and numb and you feel decay starting to proliferate to every cell in your body…? Because that’s what I felt. So weird.
It was physical at first, I’ve never been this sick since 2008. Then it became emotional. I thought I was just PMS-ing. But not the time of the month yet, I just had it. Then it became spiritual. In the end, I was just frustrated with myself because I. don’t. understand. And I’m being very melodramatic.
I am an optimistic person that’s why this feeling didn’t make sense. I tried to fight over the darkness that was slowly swallowing me alive. It didn’t belong here. But everything I know. Who I am. What I am. I am a daughter of the Most High King. It doesn’t seem to matter. The darkness doesn’t care. It just seeks to steal, kill, destroy everything standing in it’s way. It was a battle I was trying to win, but every weapon I was forging immediately disappears as soon as I conjure it.
So I was there, at home, lying in my own misery and depression. I read the Bible. Flipped through different social media or internet websites that I rely almost on the daily basis to distract me from reality. Instagram. Facebook. Twitter. Netflix. Youtube. I even opened Pinterest. Nothing worked. Ugh. seriously.
Later, I got myself into watching a TV series I loved and haven’t seen in a while. (a year or so) It’s funny how God used that TV show to speak to me. Really really ridiculous… yet sooo very like God. One of the characters recited a phrase I thought was a poem. Almost as soon as he started saying the words, imagine me slowly perking up from my lazy position on the couch, life coming back to my eyes as I digested to what he said.
“The Light shines in the darkness,
and the darkness has not overcome it.”
I remembered. Not in my mind. But my heart, my soul, my spirit– my whole being remembered. My “WHY”. I didn’t forget it, heck I was speaking it over myself the past days but it wasn’t getting inside. Until now. Until this character said it.
I could cry.
I actually did cry. Ha! Finally, I was free! I know in the deepest part of me I was not bound. I’m free already.
But it was almost as if God allowed me to experience those grief, the darkness,.. to remind me what the rest of the world is experiencing, and my mission here is not finished yet. I have more things to do. WE have a lot to do. We know WHO wins in the end, but for NOW, this is not over yet.

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